Chronicles Of Riddle

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2010-10-18T06:53:00.001-07:00

There is a strange chill in the air,

I think it's because you just walked into the room.

Something isn't right.

I can see,

Hear,

Taste,

Touch,

Smell.

Are you going to kill me now?

Yes?

Okay, let me get my make-up on first.

Waking up

2008-05-05T22:57:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow you will wake up, and you will be you. Nothing would have changed and you will go on living, or dying. And if anything has changed, it will be over-shadowed by the fact that you are alive, or not. Either way, tomorrow will come.

You can go back to sleep, and find another tomorrow. Hide, and you will be seen.

And many tomorrows later there will be a man standing over you, piling dirt or ash or fire on you. And then there will be no more tomorrows.

I congratulate you. You are not phased.

Is that confidence in self?
Or because you don't understand?

2007-09-25T06:32:00.000-07:00

From the highest places,
Wanting nothing.

I don't need you to understand;
Your insignificance in this is understated.
Look in the mirror
See?

Guilty apathy ebbs and flows,
Flows.
Again and again,
The endless, painful force of everything, something.

Spiraling? Anything?
Can you feel pain?
The spinning increases to a fever pitch.
Vomit splatters all over the ugly face of Reality.

Fuck off

What is

2007-08-30T04:22:00.000-07:00

A rustling on the monitor
Anticipation of nothingness
Something.

Are you disappointed?
You expected the end
And didn't get it.
My sympathies.
What is it?

Why? Why not.

I don't want to answer anymore
Please, leave me be.

Thanks you.
What is, is.

Hazard

2007-08-28T03:14:00.000-07:00

Can't stop. Go. Go. Go. There it is again.

Think about it. Again. The sound repeats. Oh my. What have we done?

I love you

2007-08-18T03:31:00.000-07:00

A flash of lightning.
Then nothing.
A promise made...
But not kept?

Clock on the wall tells you when.
A day in the history of tomorrows;
As inconsequential as you.
Mindless lyrics to no tune
Word after word,
Like the broken ticket-machine at the train station,
Meaningless.

What is there in tomorrow?
A dream;
Unfulfilled? Broken?
Nothing. Not quite nothing.
Pieces of broken mirror
A ridiculous jig-saw puzzle
In each, a piece of you.
Each is separate
No one bothers to put it together
Fantastical thoughts go in and out of an otherwise crammed mind.

Something is wrong.
Or finally right.
A diamond in the rough.
Metaphor to describe a metaphor.
Imperfection, given meaning.

The clock still watches you.
You don't look as it counts down the seconds
To an end
To a beginning.

Learning for the sake of it,
Freedom from oppression.

Someone is at the gate,
Asking to be let in.
I won't answer;
Familiarity doesn't rear its ugly head.

Random numbers appear
They count themselves...you.

Everything goes blank.

How much further?

2007-08-12T02:57:00.001-07:00

The sad, profound meaning things never really seem to sink in enough. Always the nagging splinter that itches its way into your thought. They call. The irritating call of "them".

Fuck off. I don't want to talk to you.

Make-Believe

2007-07-29T03:37:00.001-07:00

The Sun rose up with practiced bravado. They let him out today. Years of living in the jail-cell that was his mind had done this to him. Freedom was like an unimaginable unreality that had never got a thought. And one night in prison had done this to him. He couldn't understand. He never really did. Those fucking assholes who gave him hope, gave him reason. He hated them. He fucking hated them.

So he couldn't believe it when they let him out in the morning. That night in jail had totally destroyed the sorry little world that was. The shop-fronts were the same. And the facade of reality remained the filthy mask that it always was. Things might have changed on the inside. There was no reason to believe. No one really gave a shit either way.

And the people had not changed. They still flocked to the market-place to buy rotten food. As the hawker smiled his sly smile. It wasn't noticed. They all smiled the same. Everyone had something to hide. Don't you think?

The empty facades of what was supposed to be, and was not. Of what wouldn't be.

How could he ever trust anyone anymore? How could he go on living like this?

He didn't. That was the answer to his sorry question. To all questions. If you can't, don't. Forget what they try to tell you. Try and try and try and nothing. He had tried. He knew. He had tried pretty hard. And they had locked him up for it.

Those fucking, ungrateful, assholes. Hypocritical bastards. He would show them...

He smiled as he walked on to the fountain. The hysteric expression on his face remained. Even after he had bloodied-up their fountain. His lifeless body, with a bullet-hole through the head floated, smiling maniacally. He got them. In his red, vindictive, redemtion, he floated happily.

Just like that. Gone. She blinked and it was gone. There one minute and not the next. The heat was getting to her, she thought as she made her way from her "work-place" to the local drug-store. The ambiguity of what she had seen was not what she thought of. The ache was her problem. She hadn't got her period yet. It ached more as she walked. What the hell had he
done? Bastard. Some "work-life" she had. HA!! Self-pity didn't even work anymore. What was going on at the fountain?

Who cares?

She had thrown up that morning. Puking wasn't a good sign. What the fuck was happening at the fountain? What was going on?

Walking over to it, she pushed her way in to get a better look. The red waters that greeted her made for nothing. The dead man was the reason she had puked. Why the bloody menstrual period wouldn't come. The bastard. He deserved it. He hadn't even tipped her. She spat in the fountain and went to the hospital to get it fixed.

T.V. was getting boring. There was nothing on. Never was. He had gone on one of his "business trips". To one of those filthy brothels. She knew. Didn't really care. But still loved him. Vaguely, somehow.

"Nothing is real." He had yelled that at her why he drove away. Drunk. Business to take care off.

And the news came on.

Dead. In a fountain. The dead guy was her guy. Fuck. The red was like the cheap tomatoes she bought from the smiling hawker.

It wasn't like they couldn't afford the better ones. They could. But who cared? And now he floated in the cheap-tomato coloured water. His own fucking juice.

She didn't cry. She went to the kitchen.

It was a busy day. He was really fucking tired. He pulled up at the apartments. The neighbours had called the police. Those people had nothing to do. The ex-government, under-pensioned uncle and aunty. Couldn't mind their own business.

Ah, what the hell. At least the bribes were good. He had a DVD player and wide-screen TV. He smiled. Like the rest of them.

Ding-dong. There was obviously no answer. This was just fun.

Breaking the door down, he could smell it. There was the smell of blood. He knew. The TV was switched to the news. The dead-guy in the fountain. Eheh!! He was getting pretty famous. He searched the house. Pretty nice. Filthy rich bastards. He pocketed a nice little crystal statue. It would look nice on his wide-screen TV with DVD player.

The kitchen door was open. She was dead all over the place. He smirked. Can't handle themselves these people. Sad. He called the station. He didn't want to dirty his hands. The coroners could take care of this. This was his new uniform...

OH FUCK!! Not another. That was the second today. It wasn't even the season for dying yet. Some fucker with a bullet-hole in

his skull, in the fountain in the morning. And now some bitch with slit wrists, all over the damn kitchen. He really didn't feel like cleaning up this shit.

Wasn't there anyone he could pay-off to do this for him. Yeah, he knew a guy. And like the rest of them.

He smiled.

Today again...

2007-05-31T23:09:00.000-07:00

I see that knowing smile on your face. What it represents isn't of significance. At least not to them. Its just between you and me.

Her hair up to her shoulders. Pretty scar below her right eye. She looked up. More interesting than just that. The expression on her face is overflowing the limits of my expression. Contained only just and yet not at all. A perfect fit.

If you may. There are things to be dealt with. Memories ask to be sorted. They are to be attended to. Just breathe. Clear your mind and listen. Hear that?

Thats the sound of no one caring...

Today

2007-05-31T22:48:00.000-07:00

Impossible in writing,
A sun rose,
And the city awoke to a cool morning.

A prayer called
Lamp lit
Candle
What religion do you choose to follow?
Voice, oil and wax melt into the proverbial pot.
Your choice doesn't really matter anymore...

This and that.
He and his friends went out to watch the snow fall
Greetings from the hot May sun.
Foolish grin.

Just another day in the crowded city.
They know no other.
Never taken a chance,
Never given any.
Urbanization is there
And here too...Hide

The picture is uncapturable.
Improbably existing in itself.
You cannot begin to imagine.
Take it in
Breathe so you can see
Hard...no?

Ad-jingle and autorickshaw
As the postman delivers the mail,
Somewhere in a church,
In the booths of confession,
People whisper the true stories of their lives...

From here to there

2007-05-10T00:21:00.000-07:00

There wasn't anything you could do, or even try to do. There was nothing and yet it felt like something might have been there. The endless stream of verbose meaninglessness poured out in its constant stream of redundancy.....

I can't take this.....Enough......

Not "God"

2006-07-16T03:39:00.000-07:00

God is not he, she, or it. God does not live in heaven. God is not defined or definable. Not an idol or a statue. Not singular. God is not "God".

It is, in my view, that which makes you happy. That which brings you hope. That which dries your eyes when you cry. That which gives you courage. God is that which makes you achieve more than you were capable off. God is nothing. Cannot be anything.

To a sailor lost at sea; a light house. That is God. To a lonely person; a friend. That is God. To a hungry person; food. That is God. To a blind person; sight. That is God.

God is what completes us. Makes us happy and whole. So if you really think of it…..you come to believe; God is not "God"…..

A young man. Sick of it all. His life. Everything. Packs his bags. Stuffs it with food and drink. And leaves home.
The sun beats down. The day is hot. Who is that on the bench by the side of the road?....

An old man. Sick of it all. Being ignored. Treated as a burden. He does not pack his bags, because he has none. He leaves home. Sits down on the bench by the side of the road. Who is that walking towards his bench by the side of the road?......

Thus they meet. Boy young, and man old.

The day is hot. Very hot. The sun scorches the bench and its occupants.

Very hot.

'Would you like a drink of water?' asks the boy. The old man nods. They share the water the boy had brought.

Very hot.

'Um…..can I offer you something to eat? I have a lot…' Another nod. They share the food.

Words are not exchanged. They just sit there. Silent. And yet the presence of the other is felt and is essential to both.
Evening comes. The cool evening breeze with it. That cool evening breeze that can cool even a mind……

They return to their homes. The boy young, and the man old. Cooled by that evening breeze…..
'Where have you been?'…… 'What are you smiling about?'… 'We've been worried sick. You shouldn't run away like that.'

He only smiles some more and says, cooled by the evening breeze, 'Today I met God. On the bench by the side of the road'…….

Itch

2006-07-16T03:37:00.000-07:00

Itch

It was a day like any other. Everyone was living their lives. So was he.

He worked at a factory. A factory that made….well…what it was supposed to make. He never really thought about it.

He lived his life. He made his money. Money to live his life. That was all that mattered at the time. That was all…

He never bothered anyone. And they left him alone as well. They lived their lives. He lived his.

Today was not going to be different from the many days before it. It would be another day…of life.

Some might speak of destiny. Not him. He didn't like that. There was no destiny. He controlled he own life and how and where it went. And yet…..he felt like he had no purpose. Like his life was meaningless.
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If he died today, another man would replace him at work. Birds would still chirp. The earth would still go around. If he died today……it would not matter. No one would regret his death. No one would remember or miss him.

So how was his life any different from that of anyone else's? How was he still himself? How did he retain his identity? Why was he still himself?

How was he…… "he"?

He thought of this often. Very often. It was like a splinter in his mind. Like an itch….
And he scratched it.

What did tomorrow hold? Was it of any consequence? He would still be "he", and he would still not know why…

Thus life dragged on. It dragged him along with it. The rope that pulled him along was not tied to him. He held it in his hand. It was his choice. He could hold on or he could let go. It was for him to choose. Just as he pleased.
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There was no destiny. He controlled his own life. It was his. He held the rope. He held the reigns. His.

Happiness and love made the rope. Hate, spite, despair and envy were the wind against him and in his face. He could choose to ignore these. He could hold on to the rope tighter. It was his choice. Not destiny.

But all this still did not answer his question.

Why was he "he"? Why was he unique? Even if he did make up the general blur of the masses, if you looked closer, you would see him. A dot in the blur. A leaf in the tree. A pixel in the painting of life and time.

But he was there…..that's what mattered…

So today when he woke up. When he lived his life. He looked in the mirror and smiled to himself. He was "he". Still…..

\nHe would continue to be "he". Till he let go the rope, or till it let him go.\n \nBut for now, the splinter was firmly lodged. The itch still itched. And he scratched it….\n \n \n \nRiddle\n \n \n \n \np.s. thanks for reading.......\n \ntell me wht you think.....\n \n(i\'m soooo glad ppl cant hit ppl over the net....at least not yet....hehe..."

He would continue to be "he". Till he let go the rope, or till it let him go.

But for now, the splinter was firmly lodged. The itch still itched. And he scratched it….

Lost

2006-07-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

They do not see,
What I see.
They do not hear,
What I hear.
They do not feel,
What I feel.
They do not understand.
They do not feel
The pain in me.

The rage contained has reached
Its breaking point.
The want to end my life,
But, for of death,
I hold on.
My grip on sanity
Is slipping away.
My life is just a spinning ball.
My words are meaningless.

I feel like a nuisance to all.

The pain in me is breaking out,
The rage inside has reached the surface.
The hatred and spite for all,
Is creeping out from under my skin.
I hate to live, but fear my death.
I want to kill, but cannot for shame.
I hate this world, but love it so.

“What am I to do?” I ask myself.
The thought in my mind,
They scare me so,
The hate in my chest,
Is hurting me.

My heart, it says to end it all,
But I have lost all faith in it.
My mind it says to let it pass
But I ask myself,
“What does my mind know?”

I feel like life is bleak,
Like a blank paper of white
There seems to be nothing on it.

But then again I ask myself,
“Isn’t but white made-up
Of all the colours combined?”
So is this bleakness just,
A myriad of colours entwined?
Am I just lost in this world,
Just too confused to see it’s hues?
Or is it just that I have lost myself.

Lost in all the colour of life.

No one smiled

2006-01-27T03:21:00.000-08:00

They did not have children because they could not afford to have children. The little that they made wasn’t even enough for one of them to live off.

The job he had as a labourer did not fetch much. Working for less than minimum-wage. She did her bit by doing the housework for people when she could. Sometimes making garlands of wild flowers and selling them in for practically nothing.

All this. The lack of everything. The absence of a decent home and a square meal.

And yet…..they were happy. Not content. But happy. There was a difference. Slight. But it was there.

He opened the “door” of his “house”. Walked in quietly. She was sitting in the corner of the tin house. Quietly, she watched as he sat down by the oil lamp and had a drink of water. The day was coming to a close. Another day would come. Another day of the same life. Another day in poverty. Not content. But happy.

As he looked up he saw her tear-streaked face. There was nothing he could do. He just turned to her and said in what he thought would be an optimistic note, “Don’t worry….someone up there will smile down on us……”

“Up there”, no one smiled.

The seemingly endless cycle was to go on. On and on. Until one day things changed.

The sun had set. Almost. The pinkish glow on the horizon still gave enough light to see. Just about.

The “door” burst open. He walked into his “house”. Something was different. Very different.

“I got a job…” he said it with a genuine note of triumph and optimism. She didn’t notice.

“You already have one….” she said quietly.

“No…” he replied quickly “This one’s better.”

She looked up. Her eyes, for the first time in what seemed like forever, registered a hint of hope. Just a little.

“It’s in a government office……A lowly office job. But that’s about as good as it will get eh?” he gave a slight smile.

Not content. Happy.

She ran into his open arms. As he held her tightly to him, he said “See?......someone up there in smiling…”

“Up there” no one smiled.

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Years later. He was dead. She lived off the pension from his “lowly office job”.

They had been content and happy. Both. He had got a promotion after only a few years. He made enough. Just about. They were able to move out of their tin shack. Into a reasonable house. A house. Not a “house”

And so they had been content and happy. Both.

They believed. In something. It had kept them afloat in the sea of poverty and despair. Someone, to them, was “up there”, smiling. They floated.

And yet….. All the while. “Up there”….no one was there, to smile.
So…..no one smiled….

Return to nothingness

2006-01-17T00:52:00.000-08:00

………….ring……………ring…………………….

The call of the alarm clock. A sign for him to go back to his world of fulfilment…. of his own or other peoples' dreams…

He wakes up.

Today is just another day. Like the one before it or the one that is to come after it. No different. No surprises. Just the same thing. Over and over.

His unending quest to fulfil his dreams. Or at least what are supposed to be his dreams. He can't be sure. The only thing he knows is that he is to follow the path he followed yesterday. The path that he will follow tomorrow. The path of which he cannot see more than what he is shown by the world or those around him. He walks blindly on. To fulfil.

He wakes up.

The myriad of life around him is no more than a blur. A passing wind that he has no time to stop and think about. His sights are fixed, on his goal. Or is it really his….?
He never asks himself this question. It is his. It has to be his.

The years of his life he spent in ignorance of his 'dream' are few. From the time he could read and write, he has been told what to do. How to do it. When to do it. All his questions have been answered before he asked them. He never needed to. They were always there to tell him. To 'guide' him. To make his 'dream'. To shape it according to their past failures and successes. To make him walk in their footsteps or to attain what they did not or could not. They make his dream.

So he has never needed to ask "Why?" or "How?". Because the answers have always been there. He never asked. Never knew the joy of finding out. Never. All he knows is that he must Fulfil…

In his seemingly mindless quest, he attains some parts of his 'dream' some are left out, by his faults or by his infirmity. Not the fault of anyone else. It is his. Only his. The load that is placed on him by others is now only his to bear. He bears them as his own. Because to him they are his own. The 'dream' is his not anyone else's. His, only his. How could it be anyone else's?

Then…when he enters the world he realizes, that the rest of the world has stolen his 'dream'. They all want what he had and has wanted all along. He does not understand. How is this possible?

He does not understand that he has to leave the 'path'…. to make his own. But he knows no other. To him, the whole world is centred on his past. What he has learnt. Nothing more.
He cannot leave it. He doesn't know how to. He continues to live his life along the 'path' they showed him all those years ago. Or was it yesterday? Confused. Afraid to stay …afraid to leave…How is it possible?

And so he is sucked in, like the rest of them, into the reality of reality. He becomes one of the many that make up the masses. Those faceless many that are there because they are there. No rhyme. No reason. Just there to be there. Just……there.

Now he lives like he did. Yesterday. Yester-year. He live today for tomorrow. Tomorrow for the next day. And so on. He lives for the sake of living. Because he is there. Just…there.

Tomorrow…..

And finally when there are no more tomorrows. When he is done waiting for then next day. For the same thing. When his time is up. Race is run. When he has achieved as much of his dream…..of everyone's dream…..as he has…

He disappears. Not remembered. Not forgotten. He blends back into the nothingness from which he had once come. From which we all come. To which we will all go.

He. Not an exception…does his duty…was once 'there' and is now gone…. returns to nothingness…

This Old Man

2005-04-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

Alone he sat, away from me,
Lost, he seemed, in reality.
Alone he sat, away from me,
This old man, that i could see.

Went I towards him, and softly asked,
"What do you do?"
And all he did was smile at me.
I asked again,
Just to see what he had to say.

His answer did, but startle me.
"Alone i sit and wait for death" said he.
By this he did but starle me.
And then he sat down and wept.

"Why do you cry?" I asked off him.
He said he did not wish to see,
This world with all its misery.
He said he knew all there was to know,
This life was but a bore to him.
And so he sat down and wept.

I watched his face with great intent,
And was but to see,
That this old man,
Was as old as me.

- Riddle

I dont like this one too much, but is all i have for the time being. Hope you like it.

My Poety

2005-04-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

I write poety, and have always wanted to publish it somewhere. Hence forth i have created this site to put my poetry up so that anyone can read it. I love writing and let my feeling out through my writing. So some will be very intense and others will be light and happy. Hey, what can you expect. I'm only 15.

Thanks for reading.