Lost

They do not see,
What I see.
They do not hear,
What I hear.
They do not feel,
What I feel.
They do not understand.
They do not feel
The pain in me.

The rage contained has reached
Its breaking point.
The want to end my life,
But, for of death,
I hold on.
My grip on sanity
Is slipping away.
My life is just a spinning ball.
My words are meaningless.

I feel like a nuisance to all.

The pain in me is breaking out,
The rage inside has reached the surface.
The hatred and spite for all,
Is creeping out from under my skin.
I hate to live, but fear my death.
I want to kill, but cannot for shame.
I hate this world, but love it so.

“What am I to do?” I ask myself.
The thought in my mind,
They scare me so,
The hate in my chest,
Is hurting me.

My heart, it says to end it all,
But I have lost all faith in it.
My mind it says to let it pass
But I ask myself,
“What does my mind know?”

I feel like life is bleak,
Like a blank paper of white
There seems to be nothing on it.

But then again I ask myself,
“Isn’t but white made-up
Of all the colours combined?”
So is this bleakness just,
A myriad of colours entwined?
Am I just lost in this world,
Just too confused to see it’s hues?
Or is it just that I have lost myself.

Lost in all the colour of life.

This Old Man

Alone he sat, away from me,
Lost, he seemed, in reality.
Alone he sat, away from me,
This old man, that i could see.

Went I towards him, and softly asked,
"What do you do?"
And all he did was smile at me.
I asked again,
Just to see what he had to say.

His answer did, but startle me.
"Alone i sit and wait for death" said he.
By this he did but starle me.
And then he sat down and wept.

"Why do you cry?" I asked off him.
He said he did not wish to see,
This world with all its misery.
He said he knew all there was to know,
This life was but a bore to him.
And so he sat down and wept.

I watched his face with great intent,
And was but to see,
That this old man,
Was as old as me.

- Riddle

I dont like this one too much, but is all i have for the time being. Hope you like it.